I am but bones.

I am but bones,
tucked into the dirt
like a child into bed.
My skin and sinew
long eaten away by
whatever else makes
this land their home.
I am all that remains
of the person who’s name
occasionally crosses the lips
of people who knew it before.
This resting place is
not the ends of my story—
my bones are a seed and
soon my season will come when
we’ll see me in full bloom;
my afterlife more fragrant
than past me could ever have imagined.
Right now, it’s still dark and cold,
but I am not dead, no,
instead I’m resting, recalibrating,
preparing for the day
my life is mine again and
my face will finally see the sun.

Picture of white wildflowers that look like daisies and deep purple/pink wildflowers shaped more like a cup from the perspective near the ground so you can see oak trees in the background and blue sky above. A few tombstones are just visible in the background, but able to be missed if you're not paying attention

in the cemetery

How many epitaphs etched onto these
one hundred year old stones are
nothing more than well intentioned lies?
Or representatives of stories the
mourners told themselves at the time?
How many promises were made as
these bodies were lowered into graves
that the living really didn’t want to keep?
It’s impossible for every dead person
to have “lit up the room” — I can’t
name more than two I know personally.
And aren’t “pillars of the community”
typically nothing more than a
white man with the most secrets?

When I die — please be nothing more
than honest.

reunion

you hugged me yesterday 

and the smell of you is

still in my hair

catching me off guard 

every time the breeze blows

from east to west and 

my senses are assaulted 

with nostalgia, and no sooner

i’ve identified the memory

it fails me and I forget as

my emotions settle back down

only for the breeze to rise again. 

be here.

you send me pictures of the
two of us and my mind
instantly tears myself apart;
‘Look how huge your arms are,
your face is terrible these days,
you should be ashamed.’
But you say,
‘These pictures make me so happy.”
All you see is arms holding you,
and a face that is happy to be there—
you look at these pictures
and see love, and comfort, and safety.
It doesn’t matter that I don’t
know how to exist in a
body that looks like this,
all that matters is
I’m here.”